I've got like ZERO posting time but...

I got the call.


the dreaded call.

Quick story - the potential employer calls me and says I have good news and bad news.

Immediately I think "F*ck". That's not good.

He tells me exactly what I've been hearing rumors about - that they went internal. There were 2 positions and the initial rumor was one could be internal and the other external. In the end he told me it came down to a numbers game, and they offered positions to the internals, and had there been a 3rd position I would have been hired too.
He gave me a LOT of positive feedback from the folks who I had my interview with and also said (here comes the good news) that in the 2nd quarter they may be having 4 new positions opened, and he'd email me so that I could skip the preliminaries of the normal interview.
So essentially if it comes again, I just go right to the in-person interview.

That *is* good news and I *do* appreciate it, but I can't help feel shafted. From what I gathered, there was not ONE thing I could have done better, it was just company mandates & politics that got the other 2 hired.

So anyway, that's the deal.

Pretty sad.
Dave is pretty much a shoe-in for his position and they called him, and although they haven't made him an offer, they told him he may be going to a higher position than what he applied for.

Good for him, but just given the timing, It's hard to be supportive and happy.
Very hard.

And I feel terrible about it.

So now the waiting game for me begins again.

I want to get May over with so that the 2nd quarter can start. My only hope is that maybe I'll get a birthday present today or tomorrow where they call me and say that 1 person who was offered the job declined it. Hahaha... wishful thinking.. that and hoping I win the 27million on tomorrow's super 7 lottery.
Fat Chance. I think my birthday (tomorrow May 23) is going to be filled with mixed emotions and no big lotto! hahaha

*sigh*

Anyway, I really need to work on being supportive for Dave.

We have NOT been doing well at all.

I realized, when I try to talk to him, there is ZERO emotional connection with him. He cannot and does not reassure me or give me emotionally uplifting comments.
When I talk to him, he just says 'Yeah' now, like he agrees with what I'm saying just doesn't offer anything else. I realize now that I walk away from our conversations even more angry which doesn't help things.

I tried telling him last night, and he says he'll work on it. He says his problem is that he is a fixer and will look for solutions, but he's missing the emotional support I need.

Basketcase.

Anyway, Thanks to everyone for all the kind words.

Eurydice it was SOO spooky the comment that you left about the 'squeaky wheel gets the oil' cuz I had literally just gotten off the phone with my mom who said that to me and then i read your comment and it said the same lol. Wowza!

to everyone else, you all rock as well! I appreciate the comments! It truely does help!